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ternoda dengan kata-katanya

gah! memukau!

tentang apakah itu?

begitu mudah lidahmu wahai anak muda

hanya sekiranya kau mengetahui

senjata ampuhmu senjata tegar

menarik manusia kelembah hina

hanya sekiranya kau mengetahui

betapa aku yang mendengar tersiksa

dengan lagu nafsu lidahmu

benarlah kata dia yang lebih dahulu

lidah tidak bertulang

hanya sekiranya kamu mengeahui

kehidupan ini sementara

bukan..

hanya sekiranya kau memahami

kerna aku tahu jauh disudut hati, aku yakin kau mengetahui

pasti

die yang berkata lebih memahami

to those who are asking and already asked

i dont think im gonna encourage my child to be a doctor

and am gonna raised them outside malaysia

insyaAllah

i think this in one time that i afraid to sleep.

its not that im afraid im not gonna wake up tomorrow.

 no

im afraid of waking up

am afraid that he'll take what i feel now

will i get it again tomorrow.

i see the light

but how can i hold it?

i know the road is long

make me strong

please

Allah.

doctors evening

hi

hi

sakit ape

 multiple schleoresis

r u sure?

thats why im here. instead of  saying 'sakit ape'. can u say 'sakit kat mana"?

i dont have time for your joke

create time then

i dont create. God's do that

u think god give me time to make joke for you?

whats ur problem 

u

fine, sakit kat mana

:)

i stepped on my own leg.

if Cinderella forgot her shoes

 i forgot my words

if Cinderella have a prince that search her by the shoes

i have Allah that teach me my forgotten words

during our last usrah, i was assigned to discuss the second topic of Muntalaq. its kinda a motivation to the rijal or the people who are eager caring da'wa that theres always chance and hope to see Islam achieve its glory years. there's one spot in the text where i was discussing bout faith for Allah to be specific faith in everything that Allah had decided and choose for us based on our afford and willingness.

we always said that we want this and that and we strive for it. we want john or mark to embrace islam. we worked so hard but yet Allah didn't choose them for that precious hidaya.
then we felt so down as if we didn't even done anything for them. we felt tired and feed up.
we give up.

 are we allowed for that? are we the grantor of Allah's hidaya?.

 i said it repetitively to convince my usrah-mates that we can only hope and work for the best but the rest is in Allah's hand. i took the philosophy subject as an example when they criticize  God and the here-after. how its that possible when they never saw hell or heaven even God, but they are making so many claims about it with so many theory that i never have time to understand it deeper.

 its like when you are about to take your IB exam or SPM,PMR name it, you have this so many thought and perception about it. but once you're out of the hall , most of us have different thought in mind just because we have undergo such experience. then you start to tutor you junior about it. just the same.to make it simple.

look, its about how you put the highest faith in the one and only. the one who created the hell, the heaven, the spirit, the messenger, universe and you..

who?

Allah The Almighty

how confidence i am that time.

 and today, when my results was out. i completely forgot every single thing. i was to busy with my sadness and despair.

 then i came to thought that, who give me this? who allowed me to get such grade when i've worked so hard? to whom did i said my tawakkal? what is tawakkal?

Ya Allah i truly forgot about you. i'm lost because of my obsession of myself. i thought im the one creating the universe. im the one controlling the human. im the one controling myself. O Allah.

dearest brothers and sisters,
look and think. i stepped on my own leg.

te hee

isnt there, here, have anything for me to write about?

 i dont know particularly what happen but im like dont have anything in mind. 

everything going on so routine. 

at least dulu, macam2 aku nak scribb on this blog. 

ke menandakan kurangnye pengisian?

i've always love doing this

kak siti gave me a plain book

so kinda use it for such things 

heee

im being ego and i know it

this iz how it goes

salam everyone,
back 2-3 weeks, i was caught in a maze of ermmm i dont really know how to describe but my life was so damn miserable  and it was just because i was hook. no i hooked my self to someone. let just name this person as A. i was too focusing on us like i want everything to be with A. i cant stop myself for being with A and with that i normally force to spend some of my precious time just to see A. i know this A already have her own bestie and stuff but i just like her. can u get that? and terribly i have this one friends that really push me into it that much and keep on promoting her almost-the-same-life to me. i was erm how to say, it was the first time for me i guess. ok thats a damn lie, i did undergoes the same thing before but it just that im very lucky not to have people around that support me of this matter.

now i just realize that, that kind of life are so tiring and besides, i didn't get much...... i know. and i was hoping for that someone to love,admire and llike me ( to put in word). i almost abandoned the people around me. their love. because im so into fighting for this person attention.

so what am i saying is that. never fight for someones loves, if he/she mend for you it will be simple and easy. im not talking about the love mater of different sex or what so ever but somehow what had happened to me can be kinda a templet for others as well.

live ur life. make full use of it. no point of hopping people t praise or admire you you arer tying so hard just to fit to that person hearts. its sooooo anoying sometimes as a friends beside. and sometimes it reflect the emptiness in you.

okay i dont mind if someone come to me and tell about the person she admire (again this isnt about love matter..it is completely different thing and im so lazy to describe)
but please dont show ur  lame and desperate-housewives expression. it as if ur living ur life just for that person. when u are so hook to ur phone ( "3" offering free internet.... i know... and doesn't support my bb...urghhh) and abandoning people around you especially missing in the middle of discussion is so unacceptable. live ur life. dont be so lame. i know some of u guys cant wait to get married and having ur own husband and bla..bla.blaa... but please dont sound so desperate. it annoy me!

serabut~

once i cried

teringat peristiwa sedih dalam flight haritu

Allah je yang faham.

but this song made my day

Apalah nama sebuah perjuangan tanpa keperitan  jalannya

"we have too many love yet to discover among us.."

no guys ever succeed in making me adore him

as much as how i adore u sister

you make my hearts stops for seconds when i met you after a long time

u make me prepare speech before i could talk to you

even a casual one
u should know how  high i am when u called me
my leg wasn't on the ground

i like to see when ur happy even if it means that i need to sacrifice my weekend

i like it when you asked me to stay

and it's very easy for me to make the decision

i never felt this for anyone before
i'll never ask for you to have the same for me
its enough for having you around

who said we cant be happy without men around?

open your eyes

 we have too many love yet to discover among us

p/s : im still normal and i'll get married to a man.lol. is that answering?

 i dont take peoples. im natural

when the time comes 

 it will only be mend specially and intricate for me

we got the same desktop screen

:)

Awww, this cause me to try even harder.

yo snowblue and wiggly, lets start the business

exam is just in front of the door

no more just around the corner

its so hard to train wiggly not to bully snowblue blur

grr

okay

okay i got it.

i got it today

i realize it

to many works to be done

no time to waste

i'm here for reasons

even im there for reasons

sory to that someone

i didn't mean to if i could say. i did have those sometimes and even now. but not going to care that much.

okay

but i have reasons for that

Hate it-This shouldn't be a title

I've developed this kind of feeling

hatred!

can i said it more

hate it

her

should be the other way

this place should be decorated with so many buds of laughter and the very bit sweets of my life

but i don't have the other way to tell it

i left my blue book at home anyway

i really shouldn't


(drama lah sangat~)

really just stop and be considerable and sporting lah sket.

your not the only sponsored people here

i want to walk by my self

bravely speak my mind

put aside my hesitation

independently ride my legs

be nice to everyone

 you don't need to be so damn brilliant to survive this race

head up some of your soft skills

there is where the society will create that 'cling' on you

life is short if you think of

what afraid you?

grab that every second in front

pull the one behind

as i said thousand times before

be nice

then i'll treat you just the same

i can give you Ainun as example

Dora some more

Mark? erk...

pesanan penaja (penaja as in myself, lol)  as to conclude

menggelabah is my trait, but i hate it

thanks to you, i lost it somewhere

just because to encounter 'this situation'

now only  i realize where was that so called 'sakinah' in me

siape?

klaka sungguh kot

tapi brilliant ideas anyway

theres more

look at you

look at them,

there's always more than just that in life. i'm no longer a teenager. some said im ego. 

can i say ...yes i am. 

its not easy for me to tell my feelings and how i felt for someone especially. 

neither, 

i don't like of too much that. stay cool. 

don't behave like the typical teenagers. 

grow up!

you might be the next Sultan Muhammad Al-Fateh,

pengganti Umar Al-Khattab,

pewaris Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi

who knows?

so start to behave your self. 

we have far more lots of work to do

baby posting

haila, semua pun lah nak post gambar anak chumil masing-masing.
 huwaaaaaa, boleh tak nak buat pengumuman kat sini. im not ready yet for a marriage but i cant wait to have my own babies. hahaha. ape gelak2. sweet kot. geram aku mengusha anak-anak mat salleh kat sini. thats what i do here other than seeing the scenery. i did the same thing during umrah. what can i say, i love kids!

when i have my own kids, am gonna update so many things about he/she here.

bolehlah cakap sekarang, cube jaga baby satu tengok.

grhhh... ok abaikan. random saje while waiting for diba preparing my iftar today. salam akhir syawal everyone. this is my last day for puase enam!