this iz how it goes

salam everyone,
back 2-3 weeks, i was caught in a maze of ermmm i dont really know how to describe but my life was so damn miserable  and it was just because i was hook. no i hooked my self to someone. let just name this person as A. i was too focusing on us like i want everything to be with A. i cant stop myself for being with A and with that i normally force to spend some of my precious time just to see A. i know this A already have her own bestie and stuff but i just like her. can u get that? and terribly i have this one friends that really push me into it that much and keep on promoting her almost-the-same-life to me. i was erm how to say, it was the first time for me i guess. ok thats a damn lie, i did undergoes the same thing before but it just that im very lucky not to have people around that support me of this matter.

now i just realize that, that kind of life are so tiring and besides, i didn't get much...... i know. and i was hoping for that someone to love,admire and llike me ( to put in word). i almost abandoned the people around me. their love. because im so into fighting for this person attention.

so what am i saying is that. never fight for someones loves, if he/she mend for you it will be simple and easy. im not talking about the love mater of different sex or what so ever but somehow what had happened to me can be kinda a templet for others as well.

live ur life. make full use of it. no point of hopping people t praise or admire you you arer tying so hard just to fit to that person hearts. its sooooo anoying sometimes as a friends beside. and sometimes it reflect the emptiness in you.

okay i dont mind if someone come to me and tell about the person she admire (again this isnt about love matter..it is completely different thing and im so lazy to describe)
but please dont show ur  lame and desperate-housewives expression. it as if ur living ur life just for that person. when u are so hook to ur phone ( "3" offering free internet.... i know... and doesn't support my bb...urghhh) and abandoning people around you especially missing in the middle of discussion is so unacceptable. live ur life. dont be so lame. i know some of u guys cant wait to get married and having ur own husband and bla..bla.blaa... but please dont sound so desperate. it annoy me!

serabut~