Hei

Dear,
Did u do it purposely? But guess what, it is a good try anyway. X pahan kannnn

... i dont know

No specific title that could describe my feelings for now. maybe I almost hit the bio-clock. maybe. didn't look at the calender yet. I have no mood at all in anything. to sleep and even to wake up. what's happening to me?

I'm just tired of worrying. too many things. there's like tones of 'perhaps' in me. what if this. what if that. and I really need to talk to someone. I used to tell my mum every single things even the tiniest things in life. But that feeling somehow flew no where to be found. I still talked to her on some matter but not all. i don't want to trouble and mess up her chaotic-enough-life. being with her almost every time now, makes me realise that she have far more important things to consider. and I'm the eldest. I need to grew up and be sensible. Being the one that soon my siblings can cling on. not the one with all the annoyance .

Last but not least

Alhamdulillah, hari jumaat lepas was my last day of working. Thousand times i keep on reminding my self that it is not bacause of the pay. But the experience.  How times flies.  Its almost a month.

I've been working for a month! Duh, sounds excited as if worked for years. Somehow i cant agree more with one of my friend quotation.

"Kerja ni bosan sbb buat bende sama setiap hari. Tapi belajar is far more exciting sbb u get to learn new things every day. Kalau penat time keje, x boleh tidur. Tapi penat dalam class at least boleh lagi nak tersengguk2. ^^"

Obviously the last part tu saya tambah sendiri. Muuf. But true kan. Im not sure for you guys, but for me it is a Big  YES!

Hari2 susun, kira, and replanish stocks. Tulis account per day ( pergh, sound mcm hot sangat je). Then bile x de keje, duduklah situ macam jaga terhormat. Ni bukan merungut okay just  a review:) dari hati yang tulus ikhlas, saya x menyesal berkerja. Im so grateful for the momment.

It makes me;
1. Bangun awal di waktu pagi ( only school leavers will understand how hard this is for most of us)
2. Know how to deal with some new things in life
3. Kira dengan sangat laju! ( i loike this part. Very least calculator was being used and the students shops mcm dekat mall. InsyaAllah, i'll survive without my gdc. Sebelum ni gdc tu mcm nyawa kot)
4. Ikut umi pergi sekolah everyday, and terdedah kepada oppourtunity untuk dibelanja makan oleh chu ah.
5. Grew thinner ( ini hanya angan2)
6. Jumpe encik vitagen every tuesday. ( i have stories regarding this. Will share if rajin.
7. Kurang masa untuk buat bende bukan2
8. Earn some pocket money. Especially masa nak pergi trip klantan).
......And many more

For fasting month ummi suro bhenti. Ngaji banyak2 kat umah. And of course to settle down many things

Thanks to cikgu sharifah for being an excellent mentor and to be patient with me. I know i took many cuti segera. Thanks as well for all the stories and your faith in me. Kudos to all smksi mates. I know i took some times to make friends but you guys helped me a lot! Will miss you, you and you.

dear Sygic

one of my favourite apps currently

but guess what?

it is not functioning well!

might be something happen during the installation

was thinking bout to alter it myself

but kinda risky

so might also need to meet the salesperson to reset it

anyway, cant wait to use it

especially to those 'buta jalan' like me

:)

New Born Baby

:)

safely arrived around 2 pm today

will be joining the eldest twin nokia xpress

and  her younger sister ipod touch

 i'm opt to let go one of the twin to adek

and beloved second daughter to ekah

for adoption

she should aid my studies actually. 

so, she suppose to be the brightest among all her siblings

May babyhood be filled with lots of joy and make for lots of wonderful memories.

All the best!

It's Sunday

it's sunday

ummi went out to sent adek to her sport's day

she's being so exited even a month before. 

Shouting all the cheers out loud at home (bathroom as well)

anyhow, good luck adek

even i know that u didnt participate in any sports

except for the marching

It's Sunday

will be spending for my new gadget 

surveyed before

InsyaAllah, this is the best that I could afford

hopefully

It's Sunday

and theres event at masjid An-Nur, Bangi

:)

:")

Alhamdulillah ya Allah,

the result is out!

pass the requirement

maka tamatlah 2 tahun saya-lebah

I' ve never expected it to be this far

anyhow,
i am thankful to my most supportive classmates and friends,
lecturers, bosses, and not to forget counsellors

today's present

Alhamdulillah,

hadiah Allah pada saya pada hari ini bermula sebelum result keluar. subhanallah, get to meet Lim Jooi Soon personally at his house. having small usrah. 

i could say, it is a life time experience to witness such sacred moment in ones life. seriously saya belum pernah dengar lafaz akad nikah live. but akad ni cukup buat jantung saya bergoncang mcm dilanggar garuda. almost shed my tears. but haruslah dikawal sebab ramai jugaklah muslimin masa tu.

started right after jumaat prayer with some taaruf with seisi dewan. adelah dalam 15 orang campur kami 4 wanita. i never knew at first that it will be held at Brother Lim's house. expecting for any pejabat agama. mmg ter-kesima nampak dia as we enter his house. 

then he explained about Islam briefly. it was short but concise and easy to understand but not for the first timer lah. kene ade basic lah sikit2. but yang datang semua dah ade basic insyaAllah. short Q & A session.

and then the akad

~i know what you guys are thinking about

sadly,

not going to talk bout this. owkay~

 Subhanallah, its an eyes opener somehow. i never imagine they will be very effected by our deeds. meaning, teori akhlak masih laku diguna pakai. manusia masih tertarik kepada Islam dengan akhlak muslimin. its terribly and ouch to me when he did said he was attracted because being with us. :")

anyhow,,,

welcome to the family

i know we did treat you as a family even before (aren't we?) but to have you now

in this condition

after that solemnization

surely,

it will be different

hope Allah ease your way

our way as well 

do you know what did I wish today early in the morning?

I wish that HE could teach me how to love HIM

and this is it I guess

Awaluddin Ma'rifatullah

since young

I've done this since young

so no offence

even to call me 'dugong'

that's the bless

Coming Home by today

im coming home..

phewww,, Alhamdulillah infinite Alhamdulillah. after a week of vacation. even thought there were changes to our original schedule but yet truly klantan always have another stop-to-go.

and the best part was..the early morning call (owh im sory, its just a dearly message)

tink..tink..

"awak datang keje kan hari ni?"

dush2

"harini belum lagi cikgu. esok insyaAllah"

and here i am, preparing for tomorrow

lets not talk about what suppose to happen tomorrow :)