mood-y-ly

walllaaa,,,,another day of mood-y-ly mood is coming.welcome d day. pffffttt.. confuse like hanging everywhere.and im stuck in one of it. trying to escape but ill jump into another same. at this point i dont know what could calm me down,,really i've put that distance with him. remembering him vividly seem no longer give

any effect to me. seriously,,im kinda lost somewhere,,ive lost my love one. owh no,the one that love me. oooo Allah, me know nothing to do. taking each step empty-y-ly.it seems that the key to keep me drive has no longger there. im holding it again myself all alone.

what??? am i mumbling about. it just that, things didn't turn to what we expected.so im kinda miserable at the momment.any number are engage. arghh...ok i should get back to my life and workssss..till then,bubye

sory for making you hear such thing. i was hoping to write something better to you. but im a-bit-y negative right now,,how im suppose to see the sun when im at night. anyway hope your day much better,arent you?

btw, just to get u update with my new hobbiee...
tada..

kejuuuu...

ape pasallah mai nie

bakal2 dr,,aceccece..

atas permintaan ramai..presenting..elisha..hohohoho

HUJAN..

bukanlah pasal noh hujan or whatever,

 tangan nie menulis saat bumi sedang dirembeskan oleh manik2 hujan. lebat sangat..dan sangat nyaman...dan saya sangat suka. 

suke ape?

 suka waktu hujan lah. segala tentang hujan saya suka. especially bunyi hujan, suhu time hujan. sangat tak sama dengan bukak kipas even full speed. Subhanallah, cantik angin yang Allah cipta. aircond pun kalah!

bila hujan..teringat masa dekat kolej lama. berduyun-duyun manusia menadah tangan..."waktu mustajab berdoa!"..even if kami tengah makan. stop sekejap hal2 makan, sbb nak berdoa punye pasal..sekarang?..heh..suasana tu mmg lah mcm terlalu ideal untuk diadakan balik. but roh tu yang penting. terbanglah kemanapun...kita tidak beramal kerana suasana. but of course semua tak semudah yang dulu. tapi inilah kesempatan mencari ikhlas..

teringat quote yang terpapar kat hall "pink" yang setiap hari tengok.

 "sesungguhnya burung pipit yang hinggap disini bakal terbang seperti helang"

..quote ni dalam arab actually but i couldn't find the arabic version. betulkah helang?..sepatutnya...bukan senang tapi bukan mustahil. perjalanan kita setiap hari, Allah beri banyak support system untuk itu. tak Allah letak kita terdampar sendiri. Alhamdulillah, sehingga hari ini masih kelihatan manusia2 itu. nak dengan tak nak je....

(huhuhu..where did i put my spirit?)

did i change?

entah..tak tau nak tulis ape lagi lepas tu

just nak state...did i change?

the precious 50 minute (almost)

sory, didnt even have the chance to take two with umar!

pheww...pengalaman yang sangat menakjubkan. jaga umar yusuf and u are in academic session! bawak umar jalan2 tu mmg x de masalh...tapi bile tang bawak botol susu die,,mmg aku tak ubah mcm mak2 dh jadinye.

sumpah, sangaaaat best. its like..entah..somehow menjawab beberape soalan yang aku sendiri tak berani nak tanye. first hand experience. and aku tak rasa aku mampu nak jadi a student "mummy"..not at the momment lah..anyway,,kanak2 mmg x pernah membosankan.sangat menarik dalam segala hal. and bende yang paling aku tak sabar is that when you have someone that really depend on you. no matter what other people sogok, once that child see you, they will run towards you. nothing can compare to that feeling. im waiting for that day insyaAllah..pergh...hahaha..bajet macam besar sangat. saya melihat isu perkahwinan sangat jauh,,but i cant stop myself  dreaming about kids.my own.. seronok kan ade anak sendiri...

but dont you think Allah also think that way. yelah, he's the one who created us. but still we more prefer to hang on other people rather than HIM first.

Astagfirullah...

anyhow,

mabrouk to kak anisah for the new born

welcome to the family!

i love when im green

called ummi,

get things settle

and i just love when im green

how nice everything. its like rearranging ur mind as well

at last, i carved my name on it. we gonna be good friend until 27/10/2011

grrr...

sungguh tak selesa aku hari ni.dari women problem sampai sebesar2 alam punye problem...semua podok di bahuku hari nie..adeh..nak selebeh bahu ni kalau boleh. 

ok let define to day as hari merungut sedunia. 

kesian awin..banyak giler aku bebel hari ni. semua sudutn tak kena. bukan lah aku ni sakit sangat ke hape...cume seronok mengeluh2 ni. sebenarnye xdelah serius memana.

i dont think today run so smoothh. pernah ke mana2 hari kat KMB smooth?.. i really need my life back!..kelam kabut sangat. dah le kite ni mmg jenis kene atur satu2. once ade bende out of control mulelah aku naikkan bendera putih ..SURENDER!!!!.tapi sebab banyak faktor...aku jalan lah jugak.

anyway thanks to ekah yang tolong downloadkan bunyi hujan....i was hearing to it all the way to class. its like being in my own world. with no one over. i want to throw my bag and run as fast as i can..and hope to see a beutiful scenery infront.hate all those blocks and bricks. so unnatural!

semua bende tak kene. what is happening to me. im too miserable right now.which path should i take. rasenye mcm semua jalan dh try. tapi akhir2 mcm ni jugak..huhuhu

to whom it may concern,

i cant think of anything else to replace ur gift. i know its not as direct and good as the 'gift' but they said its a motivational book. me myself in the state of reading it..so cant sure u anything.im sory if any part in it touch you,,its about mother's love.sory if it is... anyhow, if you think and look deeper, perhaps you'll see more than just that. read between lines!.

happy reading

:)

to others who might not know this,

from far

syafaqillah

berape lama lagi

awak fikir berape lama saya akan ada disini?

me myself don't know it

sometimes i think it is better to be different

but to some extent i dont think so

y i keep on meeting people who are from other side?

ade clue ape2 ke?

anyhow

i dont think i'll belong here

there'll be a day which i''ll say goodbye

kecuali something unexpected happen

where's my kite?

i searched for my kite just now. it was not there. 

then i remember..

I've given it to someone. 

take a good care of it..will you?

with the warmest smile that i can drew

:)

OFFICIALLY END

finally

officially it end

pergh,,

and need to get back

yay!

ZZzzz...

sebenarnye xdelah siap betul pown..

steve jobs

patutlah asyik dengar nama die je

 anyway, here is a very nice post to share

it had inspired me

maybe you

who knows

STEVE JOBS

...

nice shot..insyaAllah
zainol,(forgot his name),farhan,err

more than friends.whenever you go, i pray that Allah's blessing is with you
ain,err,umi,qilah

ANTARA MAHU DAN MAMPU

somehow i think it is related to most of us

thus i just wanna share it with all you readers

to those who already in this path, never give up because you wont know that might be the next second is the moments that would make changes. like what an imam said that we should always do good deeds because we won't know which of our act that will grant us the blessing of Allah

to those who are still in the urge of searching,

try hard. HE is the source of love. HE'll guide you to it. no matter how. anyhow it depends on your willingness to search for it. the lights is there

to those who didn't even understand what this all about

i pray to Allah that someday we''ll meet a great person and from him,HE'll open our eyes to the beautiful side of life. 

ANTARA MAHU DAN MAMPU

(click on it, and happy reading)

love u guys as always~

kenapa perlu

kenapa kita perlu gembira melalui dia

bukankah kegembiraan itu berbeza

kenapa perlu di stictkan apa yang ingin kita lakar di awan

hanya kerana lakaran dia di bumi

sometimes, u need to let go something even if you love the person

because both of you  just to different 

he's not in you dream 

then why you need to get into his dream in the first place?

you have you own potential to create your own rainbow

without even the initial by him

do fly with your own feather

i hope to see you soon

with a brighter smile

believe me you can

you didn't even tried

you'll never know

that is his way but not your

you'll meet thousand other people

get it?

hope you do

luv u as always

~me~

they said..

"A doctor can heal flu, deep wound,mend a broken leg, but not a broken heart.."

how do you so sure on that? 

depends on what type of doctor u meet.

even the word doctor is to broad

there was once i 'meet' a doctor as well as a heart sealer

she's so good

because she knows her aim and target

being a doctor is just a reason for it 

saya pernah juga bertemu yang bukan pun doktor

tapi segenap episod hidup saya

dialah syifa'

my beloved ummi

tak pernah genggam sijil kedoktoran

tapi pakar dalam mana2 pun penyakit anak2 dia

saya ingat masa ummi sendiri jadi doktor membuat minor operation to my hand. and later than my sister got the same disease, and we took her to the clinic.

guess what!

the doctor did just the same like my ummi did for me

see..

when you do something because of love, u'll able to fly beyond your own or others expectation

thats why HE did asked us to do something all heartedly

happy amal!

this photo did made me eager to have my own young caliph
insyaAllah, long term investment!

~**

HIMPUN

(click)

mana?

lama lagi ke dik?
jap la akak, diorang tgh take photo tu
:)

hohoh

cuak..

ingat hilang

dh jadi macam hacker je tekan2 password

anyhow..

Alhamdulillah

saya dan lebah masih disini

banyak bende hilang dalam hidup kta tapi kita tak sedar. hanya sedar bile kita mahu menggunakan kembali. sedar tak masa semakin hilang?

susah nak sedar because we rarely use our time again

time is disposable

u use it just once!

owh

owh...

ape yang owh nye

KISAS rupenye

patutlah banyak experience kite same

perhaps he gone throught the same things

but what made him stay at this path?

should asked him?

naah...

i dont think so for the time being

the quest (2)

kalah hari ni

TT__TT

hujung2 tu problem

 tahu dan mahu mmg contradict!

kerana mencari kasih

ku tinggalkan daerah ini

walau ku temu banyak taman dan bidadari 

kerana aku yakin daerah sana 

lebih abadi

~**

the quest

Alhamdulillah..

baru balik

tetngiang-ngiang lagi words from kak Aini

insyaAllah, its not an easy matter but need to

so, 

THE QUEST BEGIN!!!

adeh,,,awal2 lagi macam dah kalah.tapi takpe2..i'll stive for it .