walking on line

of love. we spend thousand hours with them, but yet it feels less than a minute second.

we walk thousand miles away, but my heart sees you just in front. my legs never hurts that limits my kilometer. but yet the nature shortens it..

of love, the heart and pain, the tears and smile, the lesson and wise.

of love, the teacher of the whole life

of doing in making

every wall and chain guards your sight.

May Allah protect you always.Guiding you towards the light. helping your feet to stand still on line. nourish your heart with love and care. building you up a new human.

 which i hope you wouldn't drag me this far.

bring me back...

Assalamualaikum,
of things that never ever i hope to happen.  of standing on this land back. on tears that i burst at the first sight. and the love that i left behind. i was jumping from trees to trees and hoping to gasp for the loss one. if i could define it. is it lost or not even there? gosh, of jumping and miss. this feeling which i could trade it with anything just to get rid out of it. it hurts and a burden on me. really a burden. why do people stay? why do people love? why do people interact?

you know for those words that i spit out. i knew the answer but still its to hard to be explained and to be understood at least for me. just pray for the best. just pray for the heaven where i wish to stop walking.
Anyhow, alhamdulillah, for being here and also there. the land of love and the land of mission. ill never understand the condition of my heart. how serious and critical it was and is. but i know its deteriorate condition. im sick. im loss. im in a maze which i wall myself

please, give me back my life and heart, whoever you. bring me back what once was mine.

politics and me

i never wish to write about politics because im not  an expert and i know it. tapi insyaAllah, saya reti hal2 akhlak ni. not even me, my adik sekolah rendah pown tahu. Subhanallah, wahailah pilihanraya...boleh tak cepat sikit...because im being very shy towards other people or maybe other country when they see how dangkal pemikiran rakyat. buruknya Akhlak kita sesama muslim. dimana kesepakatan kita? u know this is why melayu x pernah maju dalam perniagaan. bila mana die nampak another brother tgh naik sama, they will pull them down because they will only want to win themselve. it so wayyyy different from how other races are. bila kita nak belajar?

sungguh 50 tahun memerintah negara, nyata pemikiran masyarakat terlalu banyak perlu dididik. bukan sahaja  yang sedang memegang tapok pimpinan, malah semua parti yang claim that they have a leader with them. what have you guys did towards this ummah? towards the nation?

segeralah pilihanraya,

kita berebut mahukan kerusi.

sehingga lupa adab duduk bersila

bangsaku, terlalu banyak perlu kita belajar

50 tahun merdeka, kita belum mampu mengenal jati diri

kita hanya berkejaran ketempat aspirasi ciptaan manusia lain

sampai bila?

segeralah pilihanraya...

sahabat di palestin perlukan doa

saudara di syiria menanti bantuan

isu sunni dan syiah belum pun berkesudahan

-sakinahfaizal

once upon a

Flower gleam and glow,

let your power shine,

make the clock reverse,

bring back what once was mine,

Heal what has been hurt,

change the fate's desing,

save what has been lost,

bring back what once was mine,

what once was mine.

bring me back the cloud and the river which i saw every second

bring me back the wind that blew swiftly my hair

bring me back the and that i stand firm on it

bring me back what once were mine

for the songs that we shared

for the stories that we end together

for the path that we join

for the minute and second

i cant thank Allah more 

giving me the chance to know you

to share and to colour

to learn the value of sacrifice

because personal date is so lame

so i write this for no occasion

its tuesday, and i have arabic class

and when i have arabic class...i feel happy...and nothing..


uaaalllsss...kami nak periksa sudah. gosh how 1 year flew just like that. cek cepat ape bende dah buat tahon nie? tidak ade ape ape.
huaaaa...yang pelik bin hairan is, i keep on doing the same thing which i also did  last semester mase exam. but then after exam spirit tu pown hilang. adoiii...maybe we just need to wait kan. umi pown kate tunggu. ya pown malas nak pg view site. so fineeee...ill do myself lah kan. betul ke? buruk sungguhlah perangai. ok what...
ok whatsoever, semoga apa pilihan hati ini sesuai jugak dengan kehendak Allah. cewahhh suspens gitew. nolah. anything yg tgh cross ur mind better cut it up faster. nothing to do with that. im muda still and i dont layak lagi. ni bende lain.
anyway...i cant deny how exited i am. cepatlah habis exam!

another thing is that i cant wait is to demolish that kind of feeling that i have developed since this semester i could say. because my hypothesis is my family. so, perhaps it works. if not, then mmg i was fated for her.

thats all those mumbling
zzzzz

Assalamualaikummm..
a very special poster that i dedicated to 2 different people that undergoing two different things. persamaannya, saya sayang keduanya. we always tend to see people. reflect on them. and learn in the same time. but most of the time, we forgot to put it in yourself. our life.our path..

bila rindu

Aura yang memecah semesta

Menyampaikan pesan kesunyian dikala sendirian

Kesepian menyelubungi hari-hariku

Disajikan dalam doa-doa rindu

Yang menanti kau datang dan pergi

Seperti mimpi-mimpiku fantasiku

Bukan dongeng lagi yang sayup kedengaran

Disisi cuping di setiap corong

Lorong yang lohong

Benar ku tak bohong

Bila hati menyanyi

angin yang menderu tidak tahu bila datang

Assalamualaikum, saya berminat nak berkongsi sebuah lirik lagu from saff-one perjuang. saya kurang menyukai lagu ini pada pedengaran kali pertama apabila saya lihat pada sebuah video kiriman seorang sahabat. well, it sound a bit old. i mean the way they arrange the music and perhaps the way they sang it. however, i heard something as i keep on repeating it again and again. Allah, it's so beautiful. aren't it? yes it is (my sincere opinion).

Terdapat sebahagian manusia yg Allah beri nikmat kefahaman memikirkan masalah umat. Nikmat berpaut sebentar pada jalan dakwah warisan para Anbiya'

Bergembiralah kamu wahai si segelintir. 

Maka selepasnya juga jangan lupa menangis, akibat tanggungjawab ini. kita bakal berdiri untuk ditanya.

Allahuakbar.

Perjuangan itu gerun dan mengerikan

Hebat dan dasyat menggerukkan hati

Bagi mukmin di sini harga dan nilainya 

Perjuangan itu bagai sampan di laut

Di atas lapang tiada perlindungan

Di bawa air melambung dan menggunung

Menongkah gelombang yang datang melanda

Kiri kanan depan dan belakang

Angin yang menderu tidak tahu bila datang

Hujan badai yang datang menyerang 

Bak singa yang lapar yang garang

Kadang-kadang terdampar di batu karang

Penumpang menerima nasib berlainan

Ada yang jatuh ada yang tenggelam 

Yang pandai berenang berpaut ke sampan

Ada yang berjaya berenang ke tepian 

Sekali lagi dia melayar sampan

Walau pelayaran mungkin tidak berjaya

Namun harapnya hanya pada yang esa

:)

bukan salah kami bercakap bahasa yang tidak kalian fahami

sedang ragu-ragu hati ini
Allah, disaat itu kau tarik dia dari aku
siapa lagi yang tinggal?

hingga masa itu

harini, aku tamatkan pergantunganku pada manusia. sifat itu aku hilangkan dan diamkan sehingga masa yang sepatutnya.
Allah, kurniakanlah aku seoang sahabat. sahabat dalam erti kata sebenar. tiada ragu dalam hatiku bila bersamanya. dia mengizinkan aku untuk menyayanginya, dan menyayangiku. kami diam, namun kami berkata-kata dalam bahasa kami sendiri. kami mengutamakan satu sama lain. kami berjalan seiring, sehingga aku manjadi saksi syurga buatnya.
bukan kerana aku tidak biasa sendiri. kerana payahnya jalan ini, aku memerlukan dia. sama seperti Musa memerlukan seorang Harun

all it takes

is a person

semoga sempat kita bertemu

salahkah?

Salahkah, sekiraya aku cintakan tarbiyah dan jalan ini?

salhkah sekiranya ku bersikap liberal dalam soal kumpulan-kumpulan bergerak

salahkah sekiranya aku menyayangi semua yang ada dijalan cinta ini

salahkah sekiranya aku mahu berjalan seiring dengan semua walau ape kasut mereka sekali pun

salahkah kerna aku berada disini.

salahkah sekiranya ku tidak punya alasan kerana berada disini.

Demi Allah, aku tidak punya alasan 

benar tiada alasan lain melainkan aku selesa bersama kumpulanku

aku bergerak lebih laju pada pikiranku disini

mereka sebati dengan perlakuanku

mereka memahami aku

tolonglah,

jangan bermain dengan perasaan ku

aku luar dari jangkaan kalian.

sifatku ku belum pernah difahami sesiapa.

hanya mereka yang hmpir. itupn terlalu sedikit.

sakit teralalu sangat

apabila kalian meremehkan ku

hanya kerana aku disini

tidak bolehkah kita berjalan sekali?

ape kurangnya aku pada kalian..kerana kesanggupanku kah? atau kerana kemampuan aku untuk belajar?

Kemanakah adab kita?

kemanakah kasih sayang kita?

kemanakah matlamat kita?

kemanakah langkah akhir kita?

Allah...

duhai 

aina, farah, syuhada

hidup ni biar bermaruah

takperlu kot terkejar dan mengambil pelagi yang sah2 bukan pown kita punye

kalau mmg kene dengan musimnya

pasti bertiup sendiri

tak perlukan kipas. 

kan? hee

hik hik

dearest all makcik2 outside there,

presenting this matsalleh. he's notlah actually, his from bosnia but was raised in USA. im so the lazy to tell everyone or anyone in detail about him. so makcik2 boleh tanye sheikh google. type FATIH SAFERAGIC.

Subhanallah, he was soooo goood. of courselah the first thing that pop up to our mind was his good looking what more with a very pleasing quran recitation and yet he still young. ohoi., ana rasa ana pown tua lagi dari dia

but,

sabar..sabar..mari berfikiran rasional dan baik sikit. tarbawi. Subhanallah, nampak tak mcm mana manusa ni berlumba-lumba nak masuk syurga Allah. macam mana mereka ni strive to gain redha Allah. ni baru sikit. ntah2 dekat pelusuk afrika sana..sape tahu.Allah. perlu sangat ana rasa untuk kita rajin bermasyarakat dan bergaul dengn org lain. seriously, when we just confine our thought to only us and not others we thentd to have this thought that we have done enough. we think that the deeds that we made have succesfully capture his Redha. when its tootaly wrong. that why its important to keep on reading the sirah so that you'll know how hard the sahabiah had stived just for the sake of Allah.

Allah

i know i do very least :(

I'll do more after this okay

i just think the picture is so lawa

I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be 
Right here with you
I don't wanna see 
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
 I miss you, 

I do

awww...

love letter

i really need someone that i could tell everything....

memmang terbaiklah when i read it..keluar lagu bunga-bunga cinta (asmirandah & dude herlino).

for those who really knew and observe me, know that this song have a very significant point in me. it plays when i was one of them. it plays with a painting that i know till death ill never able to wipe it out.ok sudah2. tutup cerita. susahnya nak jaga hati.!

i just wanna say...it hurts me so much. i said that i have no longer feelings,,,but how can i just forget it that easy. i dont blame you because you never knew. how come u know when i didnt even cared to share. please,,,i beg,,,please keep it personal. i dont wanna see any of it. i know and realize .but please make me invisible to all those episode.sign me out.

arghhhh susahnye...

believe me, having the normal love is far more easier than what i am undergoing right now. ook now im gonna consider it damn seriously.

Allah,

aku hanya hamba biasa. 

terlalu peribadi untuk aku bercerita.

pada mana2 manusia.

 aku hanya mampu menutur kata dalam doa-doaku. 

itu pun dengan bahasa yang paling aku sendiri tidak mahu fahami. 

Allah...tugasku besar..bantulah aku

new termmm

Assalamualaikum uolls,
i olls dah start new term. semester 2 for my first year. Ya Allah...ade 6 1/2 year more to go. mmg betul2 kene luruskan niat belajar ni. kalau x mmg dah tahap merangkak2 mintak dikasihani especially pak lan untuk hantar balik.
 hisy, nothing such thing. this is whet i really want. since young kot. nak jadi ahli perubatan (no..its just that doctor mcm lame sangat words tu). i just like the feeling of giving. anything that i have. i love to give. but not to share. heheheh.

but i need at least 3 years more till i can function at the hosp. and thousand bundle of exam paper to pass. sabarrr....

new semester im hoping for a better performance and deeds. i even take a pledge to control myself on certain things until the date of 24/3/2013.that is at least. ill always hope for more years
what was it? biarlah Allah sahaja yang tahu. im keeping my self busy. what with the new things that come to my life. to many things to manage with so little time.

back to business
im so going to study smart this term (notes, lecture.....)
im so need to get ready myself of being a women (no more kanak2 riang)
im so need to think ahead for my future and the hereafter
i'll put more effort on my hafazan