i could not shout like you, but i can write

i've never been given the chance to hate him but that is what i am doing since i was born till now.
i didnt even found any reason to like him. even if there are,sometimes. but it would vanish at least 2 days later. and im gonna hate him like mad then.
sometimes, i'll question, why did when i like someone but i cant show it.because i wouldn't be allowed to do so. but when i hate this person, all the things that i can do is to keep it between myself, some murmured or the worst...i'll cry.
seriously, i found no way to like him. i didnt find any single things in him that i can be proud of...

Dear Allah,
please pity her. i dont know in what way he need to be teach. but i really think this is just not right for her. you see how she suffer. how she keep it secret by throwing glasses. then it start again. she did to much for many people and he did nothing. i know that i shouldnt pray bad things for other people. even to write this. but i cant think of anything. please help her...i know im not the right person to make this prayer but please. i cant stand anymore seeing her in that way. give her happiness. give her everything.

i hate him. trully, i hate it
im waiting the day that i will regret this writing. but i cant think of any second.