Seriously, i didn't remembered since when this have been letters, untold letters to you. because im too afraid to have it to your sight and ears. i assumed to much maybe. but what more can u expect from me? u toured your way away. and i was left last. i give almost everything, that i felt and shared almost every view that cross my sight. still, it seems that as if we shared different windows. did u know that it touched me? i felt deserted and betrayed..
but i guess i've played my very best rolled to appear bright to you. peering your way, even it means that i need to break my limb. did u saw that? no, i dont think so...i've tried my very best to detached. i cried with the very last tears that i could have. and u know its not that easy. having u around now wasn't the same anymore. were speaking with different language. if u know. i am shouting blood inside. but the only thing u saw is smile. Allah, i really want to tell this person almost everything. but why i just cant. please,,, since when did i drew all the distance. since when im putting all the assumption on you? since when im taking care of every letter i speak. u know, its not that i found someone else. only if u know, how much u cant be replaced. but i need to. and i still doubt. a question from you being rushed with thousand probability. and i hate that kind of way.
but please
never guess how much trust i've put in you. i dont know if anyone near ever love u as much as how i do.
-sakinahfaizal.
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