Biah Solehah

sebuah surrounding, kita yang kene create. lepas keluar kisas. susah sangat nak rase mcm tu. mungkin ade, tapi x sehebat macam dkt kisas. kami dipaksa usrah, tapi tak pulak jadi masalah. pentarbiyahan tu rasenye ramai je yang menjadi. sekarang ni, berduyun2 org offer diri nak masuk usrah, tapi x mcm menjadi pun. kenape ea? saya rasa kerana biah solehah tu. walau sehebat mana pun seseorang tu menerima dakwah. selagi belum dicampakkan dalam erti praktikal, mcm buih je. kumpulllah usrah bab sabar sejuta kali. belum tentu on the day of event, kita sabar kannn

sesungguhnya ana rindu kisas tahap maksima. ana rindu diri ana yang dulu. 

phonecall

tap..tap..tap..
letak balik
tap..tap..tap..

finally!
Assalamualaikum...bla..bla..bla
owh..
*hampa*

kolej first

things that remarkable.

# 5 unique things in kisas : Biah,ukhuwwah, friends,teacher,tarbiyah

#ppearl of waqafan. dapat dh ke???

#kene masuk surau before coundown habis time maghrib. supaya x dicatit nama. terkejar2 nak berlari from dorm to surau. alhamdulillah dok ground floor. 

#subuh mesti berimam dengan imam pertama. second imam dengan makmum2 sekali, semua kene catit nama. aku lah yg dok catit tuu. 

#JAKSA: jawatan kuasa solat awal.

# BADAR KISAS, pentarbiyahan paling mantap!

#mesti bertudung labuh kemana2. walau ke tandass!

#handsock pakai sbb nanti muslimin tegur. ooppss. tapi sikit je tu. banyaknye sbb mmg nak menjaga aurat

#ada tangga muslimin and muslimat. muslimin kisas gentle man sangat untuk reverse if muslimat dah start naik/turun. no selisih2.

#bila lau depan certain ustaz, muslimat tend untuk tunduk sbb dengarnye ustaz tu kasyaf.

#bila nak pass benda kecil2, kene selit dekat buku so that x tersentuh

#semua asing kecuali kelas.

#baju preppp unggu. dulu bercita2 nak kahwin pakai baju prep. mana tau dpt muslimin kan, senang satu suite

#dalam class senyappp amattt, everywhere library.

#kami berbaris dalam saf everytime, even perhimpunan

#doa wehdah every morning before berjihad dengan exam. its soooo touching and inspiring!

#cikgu adalah perkara yang sangat suci kat kisas. we will prepare everything or them. and kalau cikgu lalu is like VVVIP lalu. all people need to make way for them. i love this part and till today it marks

#name card ikut warna rumah

# i loss my ketua pelajar name card which suppose to preserve for my anak cucu T_T

#inspectionnnn: licin habis bilik. thats why i was wondering when seeing kmb mcm rileks. but still ad jugak org rasa kmb is tough. u really need to join kisas nye inspection

#kain jumaat!!!

:(

"maybe you're the one who gone missing"

it arch me. did i? i do realize some kind. but i though that what makes everything better. a space for you. and a second for me to recover. replenish into a new. detaching my self. but how can we stop a shine from inside. so i fly my prayers over to you. from yard distance. hoping it surround and warm you every time.

At the end, im just a human who cant see beyond the starts. He'll give you a better journey.

its was for you. and mend for you

Seriously, i didn't remembered since when this have been letters, untold letters to you. because im too afraid to have it to your sight and ears. i assumed to much maybe. but what more can u expect from me? u toured your way away. and i was left last. i give almost everything, that i felt and shared almost every view that cross my sight. still, it seems that as if we shared different windows. did u know that it touched me? i felt deserted and betrayed..

but i guess i've played my very best rolled to appear bright to you. peering your way, even it means that i need to break my limb. did u saw that? no, i dont think so...i've tried my very best to detached. i cried with the very last tears that i could have. and u know its not that easy. having u around now wasn't the same anymore. were speaking with different language. if u know. i am shouting blood inside. but the only thing u saw is smile. Allah, i really want to tell this person almost everything. but why i just cant. please,,, since when did i drew all the distance. since when im putting all the assumption on you? since when im taking care of every letter i speak. u know, its not that i found someone else. only if u know, how much u cant be replaced. but i need to. and i still doubt. a question from you being rushed with thousand probability. and i hate that kind of way.

but please
never guess how much trust i've put in you. i dont know if anyone near ever love u as much as how i do.

-sakinahfaizal.