im being ego and i know it

this iz how it goes

salam everyone,
back 2-3 weeks, i was caught in a maze of ermmm i dont really know how to describe but my life was so damn miserable  and it was just because i was hook. no i hooked my self to someone. let just name this person as A. i was too focusing on us like i want everything to be with A. i cant stop myself for being with A and with that i normally force to spend some of my precious time just to see A. i know this A already have her own bestie and stuff but i just like her. can u get that? and terribly i have this one friends that really push me into it that much and keep on promoting her almost-the-same-life to me. i was erm how to say, it was the first time for me i guess. ok thats a damn lie, i did undergoes the same thing before but it just that im very lucky not to have people around that support me of this matter.

now i just realize that, that kind of life are so tiring and besides, i didn't get much...... i know. and i was hoping for that someone to love,admire and llike me ( to put in word). i almost abandoned the people around me. their love. because im so into fighting for this person attention.

so what am i saying is that. never fight for someones loves, if he/she mend for you it will be simple and easy. im not talking about the love mater of different sex or what so ever but somehow what had happened to me can be kinda a templet for others as well.

live ur life. make full use of it. no point of hopping people t praise or admire you you arer tying so hard just to fit to that person hearts. its sooooo anoying sometimes as a friends beside. and sometimes it reflect the emptiness in you.

okay i dont mind if someone come to me and tell about the person she admire (again this isnt about love matter..it is completely different thing and im so lazy to describe)
but please dont show ur  lame and desperate-housewives expression. it as if ur living ur life just for that person. when u are so hook to ur phone ( "3" offering free internet.... i know... and doesn't support my bb...urghhh) and abandoning people around you especially missing in the middle of discussion is so unacceptable. live ur life. dont be so lame. i know some of u guys cant wait to get married and having ur own husband and bla..bla.blaa... but please dont sound so desperate. it annoy me!

serabut~

once i cried

teringat peristiwa sedih dalam flight haritu

Allah je yang faham.

but this song made my day

Apalah nama sebuah perjuangan tanpa keperitan  jalannya

"we have too many love yet to discover among us.."

no guys ever succeed in making me adore him

as much as how i adore u sister

you make my hearts stops for seconds when i met you after a long time

u make me prepare speech before i could talk to you

even a casual one
u should know how  high i am when u called me
my leg wasn't on the ground

i like to see when ur happy even if it means that i need to sacrifice my weekend

i like it when you asked me to stay

and it's very easy for me to make the decision

i never felt this for anyone before
i'll never ask for you to have the same for me
its enough for having you around

who said we cant be happy without men around?

open your eyes

 we have too many love yet to discover among us

p/s : im still normal and i'll get married to a man.lol. is that answering?

 i dont take peoples. im natural

when the time comes 

 it will only be mend specially and intricate for me

we got the same desktop screen

:)

Awww, this cause me to try even harder.

yo snowblue and wiggly, lets start the business

exam is just in front of the door

no more just around the corner

its so hard to train wiggly not to bully snowblue blur

grr

okay

okay i got it.

i got it today

i realize it

to many works to be done

no time to waste

i'm here for reasons

even im there for reasons

sory to that someone

i didn't mean to if i could say. i did have those sometimes and even now. but not going to care that much.

okay

but i have reasons for that

Hate it-This shouldn't be a title

I've developed this kind of feeling

hatred!

can i said it more

hate it

her

should be the other way

this place should be decorated with so many buds of laughter and the very bit sweets of my life

but i don't have the other way to tell it

i left my blue book at home anyway

i really shouldn't


(drama lah sangat~)

really just stop and be considerable and sporting lah sket.

your not the only sponsored people here

i want to walk by my self

bravely speak my mind

put aside my hesitation

independently ride my legs

be nice to everyone

 you don't need to be so damn brilliant to survive this race

head up some of your soft skills

there is where the society will create that 'cling' on you

life is short if you think of

what afraid you?

grab that every second in front

pull the one behind

as i said thousand times before

be nice

then i'll treat you just the same

i can give you Ainun as example

Dora some more

Mark? erk...

pesanan penaja (penaja as in myself, lol)  as to conclude

menggelabah is my trait, but i hate it

thanks to you, i lost it somewhere

just because to encounter 'this situation'

now only  i realize where was that so called 'sakinah' in me

siape?

klaka sungguh kot

tapi brilliant ideas anyway

theres more

look at you

look at them,

there's always more than just that in life. i'm no longer a teenager. some said im ego. 

can i say ...yes i am. 

its not easy for me to tell my feelings and how i felt for someone especially. 

neither, 

i don't like of too much that. stay cool. 

don't behave like the typical teenagers. 

grow up!

you might be the next Sultan Muhammad Al-Fateh,

pengganti Umar Al-Khattab,

pewaris Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi

who knows?

so start to behave your self. 

we have far more lots of work to do

baby posting

haila, semua pun lah nak post gambar anak chumil masing-masing.
 huwaaaaaa, boleh tak nak buat pengumuman kat sini. im not ready yet for a marriage but i cant wait to have my own babies. hahaha. ape gelak2. sweet kot. geram aku mengusha anak-anak mat salleh kat sini. thats what i do here other than seeing the scenery. i did the same thing during umrah. what can i say, i love kids!

when i have my own kids, am gonna update so many things about he/she here.

bolehlah cakap sekarang, cube jaga baby satu tengok.

grhhh... ok abaikan. random saje while waiting for diba preparing my iftar today. salam akhir syawal everyone. this is my last day for puase enam!

wraining

its wraining 

( it isn't a typo. pronounce it the way i typed it)

and Alhamdulillah, that 1.5 euro for an umbrella is worth i guess

at least better than buying a 50 euro coat and end up not using it.

be practical 

(ermm, at least for now)

hohohoho

i cant think of any suitable title. i knoww there's no need for me to put up a title for every entry but ada saya kesah? hohoho (seee im typing the title!)

living outside i mean far from the usual people (family, family and family) somehow make you unintentionally knowing people around better. Some people stay how they are (how did i perceived them i mean) and most of them change.

what do i mean? i mean.... something and i talked about it already with my sister and not planning to repeat it again. just leave it.

try to be considerate to people.

talk slowly 

the word sorry mean so much to most of us. so do not hesitate to use it since it it free of charge :)

Think about others before putting yourself first. You can be ignorant sometimes but you need to wait till someone wiling to sacrifice. then sign up for the ignorant post!

grew up whoever you are because some people just tired of your childish behavior.

The more of wanting-action, the more i hate it.

just be humble, then i'll love you. :)

passerby: on what earth i need your love?

me : everyone except you. tada!

Salam bumi Shamrock!

as the title is, salam...

my housemates~former classmates

Alhamdulillah getting better day by day, the seniors here were so awesome. sediakan makan, makan and makan. It helped us a lot since awal-awal ni semua bende pun takde kat rumah except for our house i guess. most of the cook thing is in the cupboard. acewahhh. seriously, the seniors even said so. banyak kott

i dont really wish to write about what happened to me at the airport. all the cries and urgh..
let it be. i don't even want to remember it. just hang it as if it never to happen.

i didn't really that eager to post all those cheering moment in ireland. Not because I disliked it. But Subhanallah i'm truly amazed that i wouldn't even spare some of my time to grab  models and snap pic. I rather treasure it through my own eyes. but of course lah kan at the end of the day i have nothing to show on. dont worry on that, i'll asked them to check on baz fb since she have all i could wish for (at least) in her fb. (i might download it somewhere future)

and here they are

out for shopping!

tudiaaaaa...

wearing ummi's baju kurung

when the block captain reunite! yeah

owkay thats all for now. do check the rest on bazilah's fb.

counting days

ape lagi ye yang x siap?

berdesup desap. mcm tu je masa berlalu. and im a step ahead. is this what i was waiting for? entahlah.
so many things to do with limited edition time left. Bag saya buat masalah. kalau ade rezeki die sampai. kalau x beg plastik pown bole. huhuhu.

saya berazam untuk x menyusahkan puan ummi this week. so I'll try my very best to do everything myself. drive ke hulu ke hilir. (owh, silelah pinggirkan rasa takut nak drive sendiri).

was thinking to do my GRADS card today. however my sister is not available today. she fell sick today. stomach ache. teringat ohmyenglish. "ade telur dalam perut?". buz is comming tomolo. so maybe buat time tulah. nak bawak baz gi low yat. mcm mana nak sampai sana ek?. pakai ggogle maps, die suruh turun kat stesyen Imbi. ade ke? ntah lah. as long as kat malaysia, ramai je pakcik2 nak tanye.

now back to packing matter.!

Who is this person

Saya ada subscribe this one persons blog. Saya pun x ingat bile saya subscribe. Tau tau je post blog encik ni datang menjengah mailbox saya. Seriously,  saya sangaat suka tulisannya. Biasa tapi mampu 'dang' kpala ni. Teringin nak jumpe this blogger. He sholdnt be that far.
Siapa ye dia ni?. Saya x rasa die ahli agama. Cume seorang yang beragama.

Post Ribena

post ribena? apekah?. no, hari tu ade baca this one-post (besar gile mandat die aku tag post die kat sini)

pasal kanak-kanak ribena dan pakcik-pakcik kopi. erk,, boleh ke cm tu? maaf  ye penulis asal sekirenye terserempak. I am so trully agree with whatever he was saying in that post. 

Pasti puak kanak-kanak berasa terharu atas sokongan saya. haruslah, sayakan kipas (dibaca fans) kanak-kanak nombor 2. (nombor satu goes to ayush).

Kerana terlalu eksited membaca post tu, saya telah menghebahkan kepada ummi sewaktu menyediakan persiapan berbuka. maka berlakulah diskusi saya dengan ummi dan disampuk oleh YB terhormat cik Ya sikit2. perbincangan menjadi semakin havock bile ternyata cik Ummi juga menyokong usul saya. Yeah!. 

nak dijadikan cerite, berlakulah dialog dibawah (venue : sehari selepas pembentangan usul di sekolah ummi)

"hei, susah aku nak khusyuklah solat terawikh. budak-budak berlari-lari. Bising sangat!. jangan datanglah senang"

" tulah,, sebab tu saya dah hampir 5 TAHUN tak datang masjid sebab anak berderet-deret. sapa nak jaga kat umah."

(muuf, dialog ni saya reka sendiri berdasarkan cerite ummi pada saya. saya x letak mana2 nama, maka tidak ada kene mengena dengan yang masih ada mahupun yang telah tiada. random jelah ye)

then,

Ummi saya menyampuk. membentangkan usul perbincangan semalam. Saya tak kesahlah sekirangan mereka yang terlibat itu terima atau tidak usul kami. tapi sekurang-kurang nya ummi cuba untuk memahamkan masyarakat sekitar. Dah tu nanti diorang jugak komen masjid cume penuh dengan orang tua. Memang lah, dah dulu masa kecik-kecik asyik kene sergah je. sangat tak mesra pelanggan gitew.

Mungkin sudah masanya kita belaja cara menarik ramai pengunjung ke Masjid dari ALAMANDA, putrajaya dan kawasan yang sewaktu dengannya.

 Tahukah anda di Alamanda ada playhouse for kids to play while their mummies sibuk bershopping?. maka si ibu tenang membeli belah dengan banyaknya tanpa diganggu sedikit pun tumpuan mereka dengan ragam anak2. y not we apply that to our surau!. mungkin nak buat play house tu mcm jauh sekali. tapi gunakan masjid Nabawi sebagai contoh. 

terdapat kawasan khas buat ibu yang membawa anak-anak ke masjid. so kalau bising pun, dengan hok hok die jugak. Tapi mungkin juga boleh consider cadangan playhouse tu. hahaha. jangan bapak budak main sekali sudah~

sekadar my naive opinion.